And Then Came Up

This was posted on September 10, 2008

I will not even begin to tell you what I thought of OVO.  It would have been great to see that LIVE but while I was avoiding Kamil Beale who should have been put on trial and convicted for murdering Chris Wallace in 1997 and avoiding Nicole Big Glasses and Hoodie Combo Scherzinger who followed me on dates I went on with other women, and David Adefeso, her lover who tried to cook me alive in the sauna, and all sorts of other crazy people in Los Angeles, I was trying stay alive.

I thought moving when I did was a good thing.  It only proved almost no one cared about me, unless I had some money.  Nicole, do not think I forgot you mentioning the name Ike to me on the phone on June 30, 2006 before I moved from Palm Court.  Bitch!

BY THE WAY, MY CRAZY MESSIANIC JEWISH KHOMEINI LIKE SISTER WHO REFUSES TO BELIEVE I AM JESUS IS STILL ALIVE.  SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE YEARS AGO!

I also remember how you told me something along the lines that someone (was it Pete?) said I would use a taser (ala Shock the Monkey) to make my shape-shifting father's eyes change to sky blue.  Remember that I did not have to do that and I only had to tell him I was selling my Jeep Liberty and that it meant something bad for him.  Is the jar ready for his head yet?  Ok, good!

And then came Up.  Pete really outdid himself with this album.  There are so many great songs here.  Please excuse the length of this post; the lyrics here are astounding.

When I allow it to be
There's no control over me
I have my fears
But they do not have me

Walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods
The deeper I go, the darker it gets
I peer through the window
Knock at the door
And the monster I was
So afraid of
Lies curled up on the floor
Is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy

I cry until I laugh

One dot, that's on or off, defines what is and what is not, one dot
Two dot, a pair of eyes, a voice, a touch, complete surprise, two dot

Growing up, growing up,
Looking for a place to live
Growing up, growing up
Looking for a place to live
Growing up, growing up,
Looking for a place to live

My ghost likes to travel so far in the unknown
My ghost likes to travel so deep into your space

(Note: For some, ghost is not the soul of a dead person but can also be that of a live person)

Three dot, a trinity, a way to map the universe,
Three dot
Four dot, is what will make a square, a bed to build on, its all there,
Four dot

My ghost likes to travel so far in the unknown
My ghost likes to travel so deep into your space

All the slow clouds pass us by
Make the empire state look high
As you take me in your sea-stained sweetness
It spills, it tingles and it stings
All the pleasure that it brings
til the door has let the outside inside here

Well on the floor there's a long wooden table
On the table there's an open book
On the page there's a detailed drawing
And on the drawing is the name I took

I grieve for you
You leave me
Let it out and move on
Missing what's gone
They say life carries on
They say life carries on and on and on

Life carries on
In the people I meet
In everyone that's out on the street
In all the dogs and cats
In the flies and rats
In the rot and the rust
In the ashes and the dust
 

Life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on

It's just the car that we ride in
A home we reside in
The face that we hide in
The way we are tied in
And life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on

Did I dream this belief?
Or did I believe this dream?
Now I can find relief
I grieve

More than this
More than this
So much more than this
There is something out there
More than this
It's coming through
And more than this
I stand alone and so connected
And I'm all there
Right next to you

Oh then it's alright
When with every day another bit falls away
Oh but it's still alright, alright, alright
And like words together we can make some sense

Much more than this
Way beyond imagination
Much more than this
Beyond the stars
 

With my head so full
So full of fractured pictures
And I'm all there
Right next to you
So much more than this
There is something else there
When all that you had has all gone
And more than this
 

I'm alone
Feeling so connected
And I'm all there right next to you

Around the axis we all spin
To determine what's left out and what's left in
What's left out and what's left in
What's left out and what's left in
Who's left out and who's left in
Who's left in

The moments come and go like water
I try to hold them but they're fading
Oh my head sounds like that
Oh my head
Oh oh oh

Saw a group of people forming
Round a figure lying down
And someone runs to make a phone call
And the man kneels on the ground
The man kneels on the ground
There's a tightening in my chest
I know that I'm drawn in
Oh God let it not be you

Don't leave us
Don't leave like this
Don't leave me here again
 

I'm not quitting on you
No one else
You're not quitting on us
No running out

You know the way that things go
When what you fight for starts to fall
And in that fuzzy picture
The writing stands out on the wall
So clearly on the wall

Send out the signals deep and loud

And in this place, can you reassure me
With a touch, a smile while the cradle's burning
All the while the world is turning to noise
Oh the more that it's surrounding us
The more that it destroys
Turn up the signal
Wipe out the noise

Send out the signals deep and loud

Man I'm losing sound and sight
Of all those who can tell me wrong from right
When all things beautiful and bright
Sink in the night
Yet there's still something in my heart
That can find a way
To make a start
To turn up the signal
Wipe out the noise

Wipe out the noise
Wipe out the noise
 

You know thats it
You know thats it
Receiver transmit
Receiver transmit
Receiver transmit
You know that's it
You know that's it
Receiver transmit
You know that's it
You know that's it
Receiver transmit

Lost my time lost my place in
Sky blue
Those two blue eyes light your face in
Sky blue
I know how to fly, I know how to drown in
Sky blue

Warm wind blowing over the earth
Sky blue
I sing through the land, the land sings through me
Sky blue
Reaching into the deepest shade of
Sky blue

Sky blue
 

So tired of all this travelling
So many miles away from home
I keep moving to be stable
Free to wander, free to roam

that girl has got no scruples
Not a wrinkle on her face
You would not believe the plot she conceived
So they'd let her take my place
Well, no man is an island
No man is a sea
But this display of emotion
Is all but drowning me

What a show, oh what a show
On my show, the barry williams show
It's my show
What a show
Dysfunctional excess
Is all it took for my success

The best TV you've ever seen
Where people say the things that they really mean
I hear my name, I hear them roar
For the one more time I take the floor
Just one more barry williams show
We're gonna take you where you want to go
It's showtime

Watching as the sun goes down
I sit inside this plane
Notice how the city lights
Are like the nerves inside the brain

One by one
They're going out
You watch them dim

One by one

You watch them fall
And wonder where they're falling to